Midnight Quills

My pain is carved in bloody scars
A sacrifice, into your arms
The crimson flow, a sign of peace
Welcoming me into death’s reach

I hate myself to feel this way
To live in such pain day by day
To know you’re there with arms held wide
Wanting to wrap me up inside

How can you love that which I hate?
How can I just accept your grace?
How can I let you bring me in
To your home, when I know my sin?

I can’t give up, I can’t let go
Trapped in this torture, my life unknown
Somewhere between heaven and hell
My fate awaits in this cold cell

I want this life, I want to be
Held in your arms and feeling free
But how can I expect to see
Your loving face eternally?

A single step, all I can take
My hope in you, this choice I’ll make
To try and follow, and somehow see
Heaven’s gates open before me.